signs of the times

i honestly forgot what building this is, probably the j.n.petit library, but it's at khadi chowkooh kinkythey have alien hula-hoop sex!!!

driving buses ain't like dusting crops, boy!damnit, i'm sure i left my ambition up here somewhere!elbow room

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sunday school

opposite mumbai universitynana chowk

mumbai diamond exchangeconstruction at marine linesnear bhatia hospitalnear marine lines

national gallery of modern artngma

mumbai university (side)mumbai university (side)mumbai university (side)mumbai university clock-tower

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down and out in nagar chowk

khadi curtaincat on roofrear window

stained glass at vtpedestrian underpass (interior) at cst

old building near sterling cinemajunked padmini near new excelsior cinemagargoyle at bmc building

Vishal

shoot the ones you love

woman with broomdragonfly

front wall of a buildingfront of a restaurantarchwayroof of open-air theatre

the luverly duotwo kids

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icewalla 03

Streams of white vapour rose from the hole like angry demons set free; they disappeared in the purifying turmeric-yellow heat of the lamp. A narrow spiral staircase, frosted over like the lock, descended into pitch darkness. Namdev recalled a trip years ago, to an ice-cream factory, and particularly its freezers.

“Any ice-lollies down there?” he muttered with a wry smile.

~Icewalla Part 03~
© Copyright 2004, Vishal K. Bharadwaj, All Rights Reserved

Excerpt from Barfeeli Maya (The Icy Illusion), by C.C. Kulkarni, 1952, published by Athena Shakti Publications (English translation by S.R. Savant, 1954):

Namdev crouched by the trapdoor and touched the splash of frost around it. The lock was frozen with a thin coat of particulate ice, that shone in the light of the kerosense lantern like a fiery dust of suns. He rapped the lock with the knob of his cane and the lock shattered like badly-made chikki. Retrieving his blade from the top-pocket of his safari suit, he thrust it through the seal of ice and flung the trapdoor open.

Streams of white vapour rose from the hole like angry demons set free; they disappeared in the purifying turmeric-yellow heat of the lamp. A narrow spiral staircase, frosted over like the lock, descended into pitch darkness. Namdev recalled a trip years ago, to an ice-cream factory, and particularly its freezers.

“Any ice-lollies down there?” he muttered with a wry smile.

With one last lungful of the stale — but warm — air of the house, Namdev carefully entered the narrow stairwell, hoping that a cotton safari-suit, a fedora, a kerosense lamp and the embrace of unseen gods would be enough to keep him from freezing.

When he had descended some ten steps, he leaned against the frozen spine of the stairwell and shone the lamp around, but though it sometimes seemed to catch the facets of some structure, it was too far away to see now.

“Is this a basement or a marriage hall?” Namdev said, loud enough that the returning echo only confirmed the latter.

The staircase seemed to descend forever; the passage of time was magnified by the cold. Namdev counted a hundred and eight steps.

Auspicious, he thought, and then heard a wet crunching sound at his feet. “Snow,” he whispered, shining the lamp there. It was an inch deep, and when he shone the lamp ahead a set of tracks led away and into the darkness. He followed the large impressions, that, Namdev deduced, belonged to a being around nine feet tall.

Now columns of clear ice rose up around him and disappeared beyond the reach of the lamplight; jagged trunks and smooth spikes, and then, around them, little boulders and pebbles. Snow began to fall, and in the distance the sound of water could be heard.

Quite suddenly, as if it hadn’t been there before, Namdev happened upon a stream. A stream of glowing blue water with a bed of smooth ice pebbles, and around it little shrubs of ice and nothing else. Namdev whirled the lamp around and saw that the footsteps he had followed — and indeed, his own — had been snowed over.

He walked along the crystalline bank, upstream. It seemed like hours; first the snow stopped, and then the stream widened, then narrowed, and just when it widened again the lamp died.

Odd, Namdev thought, this lamp should have lasted for another hour at least. He pulled his pocket-watch out of his coat pocket and consulted it in the glow of the stream. The watch had stopped; the hands read a quarter past three, which was about twenty minutes after he descened down the stairs.

He continued to make his way down the stream; the boulders got bigger, the ice shrubs thinned, and as he was now adapted to the low light he could see farther, and in the distance he could see that the stream disappeared some two hundred metres away behind an enclosure of boulders, from which a significant amount of light emenated. This, it would seem, was the source of the stream.

Reaching them he realised that the hole the stream poured from was too small for him (not that he wanted to risk entering the glowing water), and so Namdev unscrewed the top of his cane and folded open the grappling hook. The clap of the firing mechanism echoed far less than Namdev would have thought. There was an eerie muffled sound to everything here, including his footsteps over the glassy pebbles and the little snow. He tugged at the rope, then pulled himself up the slippery side of a boulder.

At the top of the boulder he looked inside the enclosure and gaped. In the centre the stream poured out like a slowly overflowing tea-pot and formed the river, but a little beyond it, at the edge of the small pond that the water’s source formed, was a tree.

A tree, like the rest of this place, constructed entirely of ice; and it glowed far more than anything else. At the base of the tree was the nine foot tall being, a humanoid, not glowing but caught sometimes in the tree and stream light.

And the humanoid turned to regard Namdev. Its face was that of a skull.

“Namasté,” Namdev said, still standing at the top of the rocks. He became keenly aware of how quiet it was here; the only sound was the distant whisper of the stream’s source.

“Good Afternoon,” the humanoid said, unmoving. Its voice was distorted and somewhat masculine, gentle, and seemingly came from inside Namdev’s own head.

“This is your domain, I take it.”

“Yes,” the creature said. “Please forgive the mess.”

Namdev chuckled and began to pull himself down the other side of the boulder. “You should see my house. This is like the Taj hotel by comparison.”

“Thank you,” the creature replied. “I try.” It sat down by the base of the tree, its ice body making little cracking noises as it did. The humanoid let out an exhausted sigh, which rose and disappeared in the crystal leaves above.

Namdev approached steadily, not wishing to appear either too apprehensive — which he was — or too confident. Now, with the burbling mouth of the stream between him and the resting humanoid, he stopped.

“I suppose you’ll want to kill me,” the creature said.

Namdev nodded.

“Very well,” the creature said plainly, and suddenly it bounded to its feet and in half a stride was upon Namdev. A massive fist descened upon him like a sledgehammer, and Namdev escaped it by a hair’s breadth. The icy pebbles shattered under the creature’s fist, and it strode forward to swing at it again. This time the man leaped to the side and rolled to safety.

Namdev held his cane forward and chanted a spell. The silver knob burst into light and the creature recoiled. “Melt in hell!” Namdev cursed, and let fly a green ether fireball from the knob of the cane.

The creature struck at the ball with its massive fists and with a terrific crack its left hand was consumed by the flame. Water dripped from the stump that was left, and for a long moment both Namdev and the creature looked at it. Then the creature barked a cold laugh and thrust its severed forearm into the glowing water of the stream. When it removed it a second later the hand was fully reformed. The creature ran for Namdev with its new hand’s palm outstretched. Namdev dodged its first attempt but the creature caught hold of his ankle and pulled him up, dangling him upside down.

Namdev aimed his cane for the creature’s head. The fireball struck but this time the nothing happened; the creature only had a few rivulets of water streaming down its cruelly laughing face.

“It appears you have lost,” the creature said.

Namdev then spotted the glowing ice tree between the creature’s legs. He was always one to follow a gut instinct.

“Funny,” he replied, “I was just going to say the same thing.” He pointed the cane at the tree and shot a fireball.

The tree shattered into countelss shards of ice; even in the deafening roar of the explosion he could hear the creature’s horrible screams. He opened his eyes long enough to see the creature itself melting, and the water of the stream losing its glow. Indeed all the ice around him was turning to water, now flowing into the hole from which the stream had emenated.

As Namdev stood the last of the creature’s head was melting into the water.

“I shall return,” the creature said.

“That’s what they all say,” Namdev replied.

To Be Continued…

god, God and g*d are sitting in a bar…

hair pinsIt’s that time of the year again; natural disasters and diseases hog the headlines more than political intrigue (notice the trend over the past few years); you have to update your copyright watermarks (or maybe it’s just me); you just found that long-missing piece of Christmas cake under the sofa, and it’s now home to a civilization not much older than the year.

Oh well, might as well let them live until April so that they may have a chance at an industrial civilization. Gaw’on, play God for a bit.


rear balconyGod tends to be remembered a lot this time of the year: Oh my god it’s a new year; oh my god I didn’t do a thing last year; oh my god I don’t know what to do this year; oh my god I might actually do something this year.

Oh my god there’s a whole year to go before the next Star Wars. Oh my god the next Spiderman comes out in a few months. Oh my god there’s no Lord of the Rings movie to look out for this year. Oh my god there just might be a sequel to Lord of the G-Strings (hubba hubba).

folded sariI’m in Mumbai this month, and I’m glad because it’s the place I call home. This time I managed to drag a crusty old laptop here with me (it barely runs Windows) so I can type at home and hopefully upload a few blog entries.

Writing in Mumbai is about as good as it gets. To be constantly drenched in stimulus might be overwhelming for an outsider, but now that I am more Mumbaikar than N.R.I. (Non-Resident Indian) with the current visa setup I find that there is a zero adaptation time when I arrive here (something that was a bit of a problem when I was younger). Ideas flow more freely here; the feverish want to write and do and create in general is much more.

towelNot that Dubai is any less interesting; the clash of a hundred different cultures always produces fun results, but my response to the place is a bit more muted. It takes me a week back in Dubai to get into the flow of things, to start getting ideas and images.

I’m a city boy, and Mumbai is just so much more of a city. I’m glad I’m spending all of January here, and with a laptop, a digital camera and a ton of unrealised projects it’s going to be busy busy busy. I intend to make the momentum continue through the rest of the year, and, if possible, even ramp it up back in Dubai.

Hope you have a prosperous year too, even if you aren’t in the best city on earth. God agrees with me.

And don’t touch that cake.

Vishal

icewalla part 02

The waiter arrived with their order and set it down, then beat a hasty but polite retreat. Chanakya stared slack-jaw at the mountainous sundae. “Ooh,” he said, “ice cream and. chocolate.” He dug in with two spoons.

~Icewalla Part 02~
© Vishal K. Bharadwaj, 2003, All Rights Reserved

Chaitanya was still out cold, resting on the little sofa in the hall where Meera has flung her bag the night before. Chanakya, Chandrika and the Inspector Raané stood near him and crowded the rest of the room.

“So what do I write in my report?” the Inspector, a short man in his mid thirties, asked Chandrika. He cocked his head towards Chaitanya. “Or do I open a case for him too?”

“No, no. We’ll know more when he gets out of it, but suffice to say this doesn’t look like a simple rape and murder.”

“Simple…” Inspector Raané sighed, watching the coroners carry the body bag out of the apartment. “You know, at first I didn’t even think of calling the Panchaayat. Murderers often put ice in the tub in order to throw off the time of death, shore up their alibis. But then I realised that the water was frozen in the tub — when we found that piece of ice shaped like a hand I knew there was some gochigiri going on.”

“First time we’re doing something like this,” Chandrika said. “We usually just don’t get involved with–“

“Outsiders?”

“Police.”

Inspector Raané nodded. “My father was a Panchaayat employee. Worked in the back-office at Taraporewala’s — finances and stuff. This was when the Panchaayat was more closed, no interference with the Outside. That’s why he wanted me to be a policewalla, so I could actually do some good in the world… even if I didn’t know any magic or things like that.”

“You’re taking a big risk by getting us here,” Chandrika said. “If anybody finds out…”

“My superiors won’t know a thing.”

“I was worried about the press. They’re downstairs — had to use a few distractions just to get us in unnoticed.” Chandrika bit her lip. “Going to be even more trouble getting out…”

“Sorry,” Raané said.

“It’s alright,” she replied with her disarming smile; the first time she had smiled since coming here. “I just don’t like to waste my spells on presswallas, you know?”

The Inspector smiled quickly, then turned towards the bathroom. “‘Accidental death by drowning,’ then?”

“Rape and murder,” came a groggy voice from the couch. Chaitanya had awakened.

“Who was it?” Chandrika asked.

“You mean, ‘What was it?’ And I don’t know, frankly. But I’m going to find it.” He staggered to his feet and headed for the door. “Inspector Raané,” he said, stopping at the threshold, “we’ll take over this investigation from now, and I can promise you we’ll find the killer and stop him… it. Write what you need to in your report, but don’t even bother getting involved yourself, the police can’t handle this. Come on kids, we’ve got some work to do.”

The trio were silent in the elevator ride down. When they reached the ground floor Chandrika heard the clamor of reporters around the corner and winced. She began to hunt through her satchel for something, when Chaitanya stopped her.

“Don’t bother,” he said, and then walked out, absently waving his hand a couple of times. The din abruptly stopped. When they reached the compound they had to negotiate through a few dozen people — police, press, passersby — sleeping awkwardly on the ground, photographers clutching their equipment like teddy-bears, policemen rolling about in dreams of glory and action.

~~

“Chilled water?” the waiter asked Chaitanya, presenting a bottle.

Chaitanya goggled at him. “No,” he replied curtly. “Warm, if you have it — warm. Do you have any jeera-paani? You know, cumin seeds steeped in hot water?”

The waiter’s reply came in a practiced blank stare.

“Doesn’t matter. Room temperature, then. And then get me the hottest soup you have. I don’t care what kind, just hot, okay?”

“Very good, sir — hot. And what will Madam have to eat?”

“Do you have missal?” Chandrika asked.

Blank Stare.

“Never mind. I’ll… um…” she quickly riffled through the menu. “Caesar’s salad — my god, look at the price — I mean, Caesar’s salad and… and french fries!”

“French Fries?” the waiter asked.

“Yes. You do have French Fries, don’t you?” She asked authoritatively.

The waiter nodded and turned to Chanakya. “And your Sir?”

“Ice cream!” beamed Chanakya.

“Very Good, Sir. What kind?”

Chanakya goggled and turned to Chandrika. “There are kinds…?”

“Oh, just give him something fancy,” Chandrika told the waiter. “A sundae. Chocolate.”

The waiter quickly jotted it down and almost ran for the kitchen.

Chaitanya looked up at the expensively lit ceiling and sunk further into his plush chair. “I wish this place had some sunlight coming in.”

“I know,” Chandrika groaned, feeling the leaves of one of the nearby forest of potted plants that surrounded the table. “Artificial. This is… this is a joke. A five-star joke, but a joke nonetheless.”

“Whose idea was this, anyway?”

“Well you said you were hungry, so technically it was your idea, Chaitanya.”

“I only said I was hungry — the kid is the one who rushed into the first restaurant he saw! I tell you, if I wasn’t so tired I’d head for the Udupi down the street. At least there the waiters don’t wear bow-ties that cost more than my entire outfit.”

“Doesn’t matter,” Chandrika shrugged, “we can afford it. Panchaayat pays for all on-duty stuff.”

“I hope the ice cream is good,” Chanakya said.

“You and me both,” Chandrika replied. “Chaitanya… want to fill us in?”

“Yeah, sure. Better get it done with on an empty stomach.”

Chaitanya told it as clearly as he could, which was hard since what he experienced was always so overwhelming: sight, sound, smell, touch, memory, emotion, all crammed into one and shoved down the throat at the speed of light. He had many synaesthetic reactions too, which he had to translate — the demon’s eyes, for instance, had smelled like Pakistani rock music. Meera’s perfume was the colour of sunlight, the texture of baesan laddus.

“Algernon in Liverpool?”

“That’s what it said,” Chaitanya shrugged.

“What’s an Algernon?” Chanakya asked, licking some ice-cream from his upper lip. “And what’s a Liverpool? It sounds hideous.”

“I’m sure it is,” Chandrika replied. “Well, it’s been some time since I heard anyone call us darkies…”

“Could be dealing with a pre-independence person. He was English. Propah accent and everything.”

“Colonial English demons,” Chandrika mulled, “Uditaa’s going to be tearing her hair out over this one.”

“I don’t like Uditaa auntie,” Chanakya said.

“Uditaa auntie doesn’t like you either, kid,” Chaitanya replied. “Chandrika, how often do these, um, firang types show up, anyway?”

“Not as much as they used to,” Chandrika said. “There were a lot in the 50s. That was the last time the Panchaayat was very active. My Aazobaa made his career hunting leftovers from the British Raaj. Remind me to show you some of the pulp novelizations.”

Chaitanya smiled with surprise. “Your Grandfather was that C.C. Kulkarni? The man who wrote the Kadam Namdév novels?!”

“You’ve read them?”

“My had had the whole set! There were… what, twenty-five–“

“Twenty-seven. And those are just the published ones.” Chandrika grinned.

“So they’re actually based–“

“On his own experiences, yes.”

“I though the Panchaayat had a strict secrecy policy.”

“He changed things enough to avoid any suspicion — the real cases are much more intense. Many of our people grew up reading those books, that’s what fuelled their interest in the field — that’s what got them to sign up. Besides, a cut of the profits went directly into the Panchaayat treasury.”

“Ah. So that’s what’s paying for lunch.” Chaitanya looked ceiling-wards. “Thank you, Kulkarni-ji.”

“Now, coming back to more pressing matters–“

“Ice cream!” Chanakya pipped.

“Huh?”

The waiter arrived with their order and set it down, then beat a hasty but polite retreat. Chanakya stared slack-jaw at the mountainous sundae. “Ooh,” he said, “ice cream and chocolate.” He dug in with two spoons.

Chandrika picked at her Caesar’s salad with a fork, while Chaitanya simply stared into the mercurial depths of his sweetcorn soup as if divining the future. He looked up at Chandrika at the same moment she looked at him.

“Did your Grandpa ever go up against…”

“Could be,” Chandrika said. “Could be. He kept very detailed journals at Taraporewala’s.”

“Let’s go,” Chaitanya said, and pushed his chair back.

Chandrika stopped him halfway and cocked her head towards Chanakya. “Chaitanya… it’s the kid’s first sundae.”

Chaitanya nodded and sat down again. “Okay.”

To Be Continued
© Copyright 2003, Vishal K. Bharadwaj, All Rights Reserved

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icewalla part 01

The pavement was so warm, even now. The dust that layered it was as fine as dust could ever be, ground down by the daily milling of a million peoples and cows, dogs, gods and double-decker buses. The dust that covered all the streets and roads and lanes, the dust that she had kissed an hour ago, sandwiched in non-animal tested, artificial peach flavouring. The dust that silted the bays post-monsoon, the dust that washed away yet still remained in the cracks of the road, like relatives you barely know. The dust was her shoe, the palanquin-bearers of her Temple. Later, at home, she would almost regret washing it away.

~~Icewalla~~
Part 01

“I’m ready,” Chaitanya said, and knelt down beside the bathtub. “Here we go.”

Oh.

home down now 85 bus maybe 83 didn’t see and all the lights so yellow they don’t look it when the crowds are there Doordarshan tower is so tall I want to fly from there and oh my stop my stop I hate heels stick in the grooves of the bus bus lurches at corners sends me reeling head spins am I drunk no no didn’t drink Gautam had funny smelling cigarette though and maybe of my stop my stop stop bus stop and don’t move until I get down.

Ah.

Down the street and to the right, in the narrow gaze of the streetlights, Meera walked home. The lane was deserted; indeed, even the main road where she alighted from the bus was empty save for the usual sandwich vendor with his sun-like kerosene lamp, the sleeping rag-forms of vagrants, the litter of cats come out to hunt and quarrel. The last buses had free reign of the roads that were usually choked with cars and people, and little hatchbacks packed with adrenaline crazed college students used the emptiness to scream their high-pitched anthems of remixed Hindi songs, whoops, hoots; all under the whine of a Maruti 800 that, for a moment, imagined it was a Porsche. This was the Prabhadevi neighbourhood that greeted Meera each night for the past three weeks.

She was used to the late hours by now. Fashion Week was coming to a close, thank goodness, and after that there would be the three to four week lull as designers and columnists and society folk took stock, compared bills (rarely dresses), complained about others stealing their work, their ideas, their models, their dreams. Simultaneously, they would trumpet the arrival of Indian Fashion at the Global Gates while also declaring it dead without heir. It happened every year, and Meera was sick of it every year, but it was a good job, being a model. The parties were fun, the pay was just about as much as a desk job for a 22 year old B.Sc Microbiology grad, and she was halfway famous.

Yes, famous. A man asked her for her autograph today, after the show, backstage. Not a very attractive man, but he asked — and did so politely — so she gave him one and sealed it with a peach-lipstick kiss on the paper. The man walked away still trying to discern the scribble on the paper. He bumped into a supermodel — someone really famous — and, realising his luck, dropped Meera’s autograph without a thought and hunted in his pocket for blank paper.

After the two parted Meera retrieved her autograph, marked now with the cigarette-grey of four boot-prints. Meera kissed her own peach impression, tasting the spent end of an Adidas and the sweat-perfume of herself, the noxious blue of ballpoint ink. She pocketed the paper and went home alone, again.

Halfway Famous Meera staggered sideways as one of her shoe heels snapped; she caught hold of a lamp-post and propped herself up next to it. In the jaundiced light of the lamp she looked down at the offending footwear. It was lost in the shadow of her hair, all moussed up to a mushroom-shaped cone and highlighted with streaks of yellow, red and silver. Meera was glad the bus wasn’t too crowded; fashion show audiences she could handle — ordinary people on a bus staring at her, she could not. She dangled her left foot out into the gaze of the lamplight; the heel still hung to the rest of the gaudy plastic and gold stilletto by a single glob of snot-coloured adhesive.

“‘Oh Meera,’” she muttered as she reached down for it, “‘do take the shoes with you, darling. They’re yours! My gift, pretty-poo…’”

“Really Gautam? You mean it?” Meera bent down for the other shoe and yanked the strap off with one angry tug. “But your shoes are so expensive! I’ve been to your boutique…”

“‘No, doll, I insist. Keep it. Now you take it or I’ll have it delivered to your house! Now go, darling!’” Meera held both shoes up.

“Delivered,” said Meera, and flung the shoes straight up at the sky, barely missing the streetlight. “Right. Very good, Gautam.” She waited for the shoes to fall back down to earth. She waited a full minute. Tip-toeing barefoot out of the circle of light, she looked around, and saw nothing. “Stuck in a tree,” Meera mused, and walked on, smiling about the possibility of some bird coming across it and shitting repeatedly in it — finally a good use for one of Gautam’s creations.

The pavement was so warm, even now. The dust that layered it was as fine as dust could ever be, ground down by the daily milling of a million peoples and cows, dogs, gods and double-decker buses. The dust that covered all the streets and roads and lanes, the dust that she had kissed an hour ago, sandwiched in non-animal tested, artificial peach flavouring. The dust that silted the bays post-monsoon, the dust that washed away yet still remained in the cracks of the road, like relatives you barely know. The dust was her shoe, the palanquin-bearers of her Temple. Later, at home, she would almost regret washing it away.

The first of the dust dislodged itself on the coir welcome mat of her tiny, single bedroom apartment; Meera trudged wearily in to the house that was her home, but surely a home was more than a place you never felt welcome, which she often did. Her Abode, then, for the word seemed to have a legal finality and chicness that afforded it the luxury of being used for something dry and unemotional.

Meera headed straight for the bathroom after flinging her bag on the sofa. Much of the dust mixed with a little water that often collected near the bathroom door, and perfect print of Meera’s left foot formed there, right down to the delicate striations. This print would be there even the next day, and after that too; there were no prints leading out.

She bent down to plug up the bathtub, the one thing in the apartment she truly enjoyed. A month ago she had invested in a small heater, and so thankfully even at this hour she could indulge herself in a hot, relaxing bath. Meera usually dozed off in there. The prospect of warm, liquid dreams crept on her; she opened the taps fully and let the steam rise in the tiny bathroom.

By now her daily allowance for civil conduct had exhausted, so with a quick ‘Fuck it’ she literally tore open her navy-blue shirt, little white buttons scattering everywhere, and savagely tossed it in the corner, quickly followed by the rest of her clothes. Arms stretched wide in the steam-soaked bathroom she stood, tired and triumphant, aching from head to toe and in the lower back of her soul, Venus come home from the war to sex the private treasures of her bath house.

She washed her feet with unconscious reluctance in the bidet, and the moussed-hair woman carefully lowered herself into the sultry embrace of the water.

Too hot, or not hot enough? By now she didn’t care, but only knew that her bones were aching for the water’s numbing touch, and soon they were answered. Meera sighed and sighed, and before long was asleep.

It was the cold that woke her.

Cold water. Not just lukewarm, but fridge cold. Ice cold. And getting colder? The thought drifted on the corner of her mind, and when she realised she wasn’t dreaming, Meera sat up in the bath with a start.

“C-Cold,” she chattered. This never happend before. The air around her was warm, and yet the bath was icy. She was so shocked she didn’t move. When she did try to move a glassy, cracking sound broke the silence of the room. The surface of the bath was icing over!

Before she could say another word, before she get out of the bath, before she could even gasp, the water itself pulled her in and pinned her down. Meera’s head dipped under the stinging cold water; her legs flailed wildly and struck against the tiled bathroom walls. Her left foot fractured on impact. The pain shot through her body and she was screaming even before her face broke the water’s surface.

And then she saw it. At the end of the bath, between her legs, someone — some thing — was rising out of the water–no! The water was rising, crystallizing into lazuline blue facets, the facets into a spiked dome, the dome when risen crowning a–my god! A head. A hideous, spindly head made entirely of ice. Water still tricked down its masculine features; the eyes, like beady mint candies, its teeth like rows of diamonds — both were visible through its clear ice-skin. The ice-man had by now manifested himself fully, squatting at the end of the tub, towering over Meera who just stared.

“My darling,” the ice-thing said. “I have come at last.” It lunged forward, smothering her, its icy, coarse hands cupping her face, its slush-like tongue licking her cheek. Meera screamed and struggled, but the creature just held her down in the tub. “So happy to see me,” it breathed in its glassy voice, “I am so touched. I wrote a poem for you, you know. I sent it to Algernon, in Liverpool — I sent it as soon as I wrote it. He’s going to publish it, my poem… Do you know what it was about? It was about you, my darkie love. Come, my queen, my raani — let us make love like the good days.”

Meera could barely feel the frigid penetration. Her mind had gone into shock, and it was detaching itself from all conscious thought.

Halfway Famous Meera, nude, warm, triumphant, peach in her lips and dust bearing her Temple, skipped away down a warm road that led to a place not far, not close.

Chaitanya watched her go, but though she passed right by him she didn’t notice him. The young man looked down at the tub, where the ice demon thrust away at the lifeless, pale body, her head lolling from side to side, her eyes fixed on nothingness. Chaitanya looked, and felt the shoe heel snap, the dust on his feet, the itch of where the bra had dug in and how it felt to throw it in the corner, and he shuddered as he felt the ice phallus tear away at him. The demon came with an inhuman yell, and every inch of it shattered. The rain of ice fell on Meera’s dead, violated corpse like earth on a tomb.

But earth is warm.

Chaitanya knelt down beside the bathtub. This time all he heard was silence. The vision faded, and he was back there the next afternoon, his companions standing nervously beside him.

Exhausted, he rolled back and lay against the lavatory, gasping for breath. These invasive trips took a lot out of him usually, but this time was the worst. Chandrika quickly knelt bedise him and helped him stay straight; without her support Chaitanya had neither the energy nor the balance to stay upright.

“Bhuza…smm…aah…” he said, shivering.

“It’s not usually this bad,” Chandrika said to Chanakya, who was standing at the door to the bathroom. “Help me,” she scolded him.

The man raced to her side, propping Chaitanya up. “What do you think is wrong with him, Auntie?” Chanakya asked innocently.

“Don’t call me Auntie,” Chandrika said, “you’re older than me, you know. In body, at least. And I don’t know what’s happened to him.”

“Sorry,” Chanakya whispered.

“Chaitanya!” the young woman shouted at him, and then slapped him.

“Wha…?”

Chandrika slapped him again. No effect.

“Let me try,” said Chanakya, and with all too much enthusiasm he socked Chaitanya square on the jaw, which sent him to the floor in a heap.

“What the hell did you do that for?!” The two of them stood and looked at Chaitanya, sprawled awkwardly on the bathroom floor.

“Well, at least he stopped shivering,” Chanakya said. Chandrika didn’t answer.

To Be Continued
© Copyright 2003, Vishal K. Bharadwaj, All Rights Reserved

what, me worry?

Savant, Studly Man of Multiversal MagicNo pictures this time, but you do get an illustration of everyone’s favourite rambling bag of witticisms. Enjoy.

This took me far too long to do, but it’s my 2nd (!) illustration this year; I’m surprised I even got one out. I like the technique, and thanks a bunch to Samir for helping me put the finishing touches on the background and stuff. Meanwhile he’s working on a spiffy looking moth. I’m jealous. His blog is linked to the right (“Updatingly Yours”).

Whee, I actually finished something! When’s the last time you saw that happen, huh? :laugh:

Vishal

int. bedroom – computer nook – day

PlantScreenwriting is fun. It’s also frustrating as hell, and I haven’t quite learned to do it at a stretch like regular fiction writing. Right now Samir and I average around five pages of text (equivalent to about 5 minutes of screen-time in the page-a-minute format) before we have to get off the chair and just walk around the house for 5 minutes.

The screenwriting we’re doing now involves many firsts. Number One, it’s the first time we’re screenwriting. One day we said “Okay” and after the plot was outlined we started.

It scares the living crap out of you. No matter how many books you read on the subject nothing can quite prepare you for your first hour of screen-writing. Add in the fact that we had never, ever written in this format before — not even a ten second animation script — and the prospect of writing even a 25 minute episode makes you question your sanity quite a bit. Writing a 2 hour movie is a nightmare.

SlippersThe format of screenwriting is pretty tried and tested at this point, and since most books outline the system preferred by American movie studios, there’s a lengthy list of guidelines to the format. Our first draft was slavish to this format, but we’ve deviated a bit, both because of the subject matter involved as well as the fact that *looks around* we’re not American.

There is a tendency in your first draft to be very, very dry with your descriptions, especially if you know that the screenplay is intended for someone else (i.e you aren’t producing it yourself). Style consciously needs to be kept in check (so pretty much everything I learned writing Savant went out the window). This is supposed to be easier to pitch to a studio, so that the director can read it and put in the style himself. Writer style Bad, Director style Good, or something. Since we aren’t really pitching this through the traditional American studio system (hell, if they read the script in America I’ll probably be put on the Most Wanted Terrorist list) we decided to loosen up a little and get some style in. Hopefully said style and mood will percolate somewhat to the eventual director. With stuff I know I’ll be doing myself I tend to be much more descriptive and, paradoxically, much more abstract, since I can tell myself things in two words that I’d need whole paragraphs to explain properly. Terms like “Ping Moment,” “Amit Reaction” and “Duu Kyaa? Expression” are common.

I have to thank Warren Ellis for this change. Some time ago he put a link up to extracts from his comic-book scripts, and I was surprised at how, compared to them, the saleable American Movie Script seemed like a stripped carcass. Comic scripts are more intimate, more hands on, more conversational. I love them. And so the way we script changed somewhat. It’s still a far cry from the level of detail and mood in a comic script, but close enough. Don’t want to scare everyone away.

One of the first errors made in screenwriting is the over-use of the Present Continuous Tense. People are always waiting and drinking and walking while talking and shooting and sitting. I usually end up going through the script again and changing — damn, there I am doing it again. I go through the script and change things to make them more succinct.

Vishal types away on the keyboard. He leans back and rubs the pain in his upper back. A grimace stretches across his face and all the way down his spine. The weight of the world shifts. He continues typing.

Just because it’s a screenplay doesn’t mean you can get away with Talking Head syndrome, though. It may be easy to say, “Oh, the actors will take care of it,” but do you really want some sweaty man in a track-suit gesturing with his hands when you distinctly imagined the character keeping his palms flat by his side, neck rocking left and right intermittently?

ThresholdFirsts, Number Two; this is the first time I’m collaborating with Samir on writing. He doesn’t like to type. Neither do I, but I do okay. He writes good dialogue, I’m all thumbs. He’s much more evil and funny than I am.

Number three; this is the first time we’re writing Hindi. It’s more fun than you would believe. We’re still writing in the English language (we’re more comfortable in it and work faster, besides, working with Hindi fonts on a computer is quite literally like learning the language anew), but dialogue is in Hindi. Dialogue was and is my biggest worry. I can hack decent English dialogue, but Hindi is another matter entirely (this is the reason all Hindi movies have separate “Screenplay” and “Dialogue” credits). Right now the dialogue is pretty good. It’s realistic enough, funny enough, and it gets the job done without sounding like some kind of 17th century Urdu court transcript.

This is one of the main problems with Hindi movies, especially old ones. Since most of the dialogue writers were and are Urdu lyric writers or urdu writers of some sort, their dialogues would suddenly go from (the English equivalent of) “Dude! Her ass is totally hot!” to “Mine Sir hath brought a mountain — heavy with stones and grasses verdant — of Shame(!) upon mine family, and verily shall I avenge them and their unborn sons with swift and painful work of hand and blade!”

The above is not an exaggeration. Things like that still happen (see the climax of Kuch Naa Kaho). Us being about as proficient in Urdu as any other two Good Kaafir Hindu boys, well, our dialogue is okay. It’s contemporary without being to hip (i.e. we haven’t degenerated to starting and ending every other line with “yaar” like some films *cough*Darna Mana Hai*cough*), and it isn’t flowery. Sometimes we even manage a good dialogue joke.

This is also the first time, ever, that I’m not writing speculative fiction. No magic, no warp drives. Despite this the scripts are getting more surreal by the page, but that is only because Samir and my own weirdness multiply by a factor or 34.8 when brought together. There’s some strange shit happening here, folks. I didn’t even think I was capable of such stuff.

Even if it wasn’t a comedy, even if it wasn’t in Hindi, it would be as strange. You could tell me to write a Pakistani Family Drama and I would make it strange… okay, so if I wrote a Pakistani Family Drama it would not be a Pakistani Family Drama because nothing — nothing — in the universe could make me write something as depressing as most Pakistani Family Dramas. If I write a Pakistani Family Drama half the Pakistani audience will die of spontaneous joy. The rest will call for a fatwa.

And no, I’m not giving the script away. Nor am I going to give the title away. I’ll just say that it involves quite a few B.E.S.T. Buses.

Vishal

lightbulbs

wad of paperIdeas have ruined me. They have taken more out of me than seems humanly possible, made me less human, made me less whole. I love ideas. Ideas are my opiate. Ask me about my life and I’d sooner give you a rough chart of what ideas I was having at any given point in time. I can’t remember the names of most of my friends (did I even have friends? They seem like a fiction now) or teachers — hell, I can’t even remember the faces of my few enemies.

When I was sixteen I wanted to become a graphic designer. I had it all figured out in my head, right down to the way I’d introduce myself to people when I was said Graphic Designer. “Ooh,” they would say, “you’re that Graphic Designer.”

I’m nearly 21 and now I’m a lousy Graphic Designer.

When I was seventeen I wanted to be a novelist. I was going to be the best damn novelist in history. I had it all figured out in my head, down to the dedication on each and every novel, how the covers would look, where the ISBN would be placed. They were great ideas.

I have yet to finish a manuscript, let alone publish a novel.

When I was twelve I really wanted to own a restaurant. A big restaurant. I didn’t know what kind of food we served, but I wanted a big restaurant.

Then I wanted a small restaurant. This was for a few days.

Then I wanted the big restaurant again. I had it all figured out in my head, right down to the way the menu looked and what all the staff would wear, how the people would react to eating the self-designed food and how I’d sit in the corner grinning with my mother, co-owner.

I can cook a grand total of five things including tea. I always over-salt. My mother is dead.

Sometimes my memories seem to be less firm than the fantasies and ideas that swirled around them. I barely remember the trip to Mangalore when I was nine. I do remember in exact detail the point-and-click adventure game I planned to make when I got back home. I had it all figured out in my head, right down to the tagline on the box. What? No, I don’t remember the tagline, but I do remember that I had the idea figured out. Memory’s shot to hell.

Bah, who needs memories? I have ideas.

I have so many ideas. I have two notepads full of ideas. I have a three page long list of titles of ideas that I haven’t written down yet; movies and novels and TV shows. I have them all figured out in my head. I could narrate most of them to you verbatim. I don’t remember anything they taught me in school. I don’t.

When I try to gather up my memories I feel like a young man. When I gather up my ideas, all of them, all the stages and the reworkings and reimaginings of older ones, I feel old.

Old.

Oh, but the ideas are just great; they’re your future, you never get the same idea twice, and if you lose it it’s gone forever. That idea can make your life…

…I can barely remember a life beyond my ideas, beyond the holding and nurturing of them, beyond the power fantasies of a time when those ideas would come to be.

Someday.

You know when Someday is? It’s the day right after you die. Your ideas die with you. This, believe me, is a good thing. I don’t want my ideas hanging around after I’m gone. They’re perfectly good ideas, mind you, but they’re ideas. They’re like cancers. Perfectly efficient, marvellous things when you look at them on their own, but put them in a body and you know what happens. I have Idea Cancer. Hey, that’s a great idea for a…

idiot. stop.

Ideas, they say, are Free. The fuckers couldn’t be more right. Ideas are so free they should be given away.

Here’s an idea: A man walks into a diner and sneezes onto the classic jukebox. The jukebox, coated with his germs and transdimensional energies develops intelligence, then sets out on a world-wide quest to find the defunct manufacturers who created it. Somewhere along the way it realises that it is, in fact, not seeking it’s manufacturer, but in reality is searching for the family of the man whose snot it was that triggered its ascent to life, his memories and thoughts being transferred to it. The man is now dead. His family is still there, the children — The Children! — need a father, the wife needs a husband. The jukebox moves in. He plays tunes for a living by the side of the road.

A lonely jukebox that plays in the middle of a highway just to feed its human family.

…pretty good Idea, huh? It’s yours. Take it. Do what you want with it, make some money off it; I don’t care, I have a million more ideas where that came from, and each one is potentially as good.

When you suffer, as I do, from Idea Cancer, there are only two options.

Option 1:

You get a Job. A job lets you live a life, make some money and still have your Idea Cancer; you can have as many ideas as you can fit into your testicles, and you can shape them in as elaborate a fashion as you see fit, because you have a job and you hate your boss and if only — If Only! — you could quit your job then all your great ideas would be unleashed upon the world.

Someday.

Option 2:

Don’t get a job. Don’t settle for the easy way out with the security of getting up every day and going someplace where someone else tells you exactly what to do and how to do it. Don’t settle for the fact that you can marry the slightly agreeable person of opposite gender who works two cubicles from you just because, well, you’re getting old — thirty — and you need someone to be with you, to take care of you.

Take care of yourself you idiot.

Do something. For once in your life do something. Pick one idea, any idea, you have a million of them and they’re all gold, right? Pick one and do it. There you go.

Well, now, how do you do it?

I have no idea.

This is going to be fun.

Vishal